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a lot of people are asking what the sence of life would be. and i dont really know it as well to be honest.. i dont know why im living or why im still alive.. i mean many people die because of a car crash or illness or sth.. but i feel fine. maybe the sence of life is to gain as much experiences as you can get.
we change our point of view by experience different things.
when i was a child and we were building our house i walked in cement that was on our stairs. i wore a tights, so i wanted to cload over my tights.. they were at the top of my cabinet and there was a filling so i climbed on the filling to get to the cabinet door where my tights were. but the cabinet wasnt fixed so the cabinet fell on me. if the cabinet doors hadnt been open i would have died maybe.. that shows me in kinda way that i either had luck or god wanted me to be still alive..
than when i got in the first grade. we were walking in groups to our buses and everyone who found his bus got out of the group and got in the bus...so one time i forgot to look at the bus number and got in the wrong bus.. i didnt realized it at first. so i was in the wrong bus and slowly i got pain.. after every child got out of the bus and i was the only one who was left the bus started to drove to a secondary modern school.. i started crying cause i was alone with my 6 years and i didnt have a mobile phone. than older people got in the bus and i hide under a seat and was still crying.. but than i suddenly heard the voice of my mum.
that definitely changed my life cause till now i havent driven alone anywhere. cause im afraid to be somewhere i dont know and dont have anyone.
than when i was in the 7th grade my ex best friend started to bully me and two weeks later the whole class didnt talk to me and i had nobody. dont know why she did that, i think because i didnt want to be her friend anymore. soo she got everyone against me and i started to cry every night because it was such a terrible feeling to see that nobody likes you anymore. than one day when we didnt have a lesson she and her friends came to me and asked me if they could spit on me. i have to say i told everything my mum but when she heard this she called all the parents and told them what their children do with me. and than they stopped and everything rather went ok again..
and now when anyone gets bullied im one of the people who defends them cause i know how it feels to be bullied.
what i want to tell you with this. experiences form your character and maybe the sence of life is that you find yourself and recognize who you really are. and experiences help you. doesnt matter if they are bad or good.
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sad and touching story.
because when you think of your childhood and everything most people remember a situation in they could've died but they didn't.
Fact: everyone who is alive in this exact moment survived all the pain and suffer until now.
Childs always are scared of beeing lost and alone because they don't know this world enough to 'survive'.
About the thing in the 7thgrade: I don't know why people end friendships like that but there are some people out there who think that it is 'right'. That she more or less froced the others to bully you is just seriously dumb because where do we get with our society when everyone would do this? Good that it's over now but as you see such things change your personality for example you help now people who are experiencing the same as you had to.
I'm sad that I didn't knew you at that time :S
All in all: one of the best post I've ever read ;)
naturally, god wanted u to be still alive!!!!! because u are one of the colest and honest people i've ever met.. and i love ur posts soooooo..ooo much, because theres never a post which isnt totally awesome and honest!!!
i think i know which person u mean with the 7th grade.. and i think i know that a little bit similar but actually its different:D in the 6th grade i was bullied by one girl.. but some of my "friends" have participated and so i was alone.. she she doesnt want me to be part of her group and my "friends" were in this group, so i went to an outsider really fast.. i felt the same like u and cried every night..but i dont really know how it went "normal" then.. becaud´se now they are my friends again.. even if they treat me like this.. i dont even know why. hm.. but i shouldnt comment my "problems" in this comment-box :D im sorry ..
Like every post, this is an amazing one! i hope u will never finish posting.. like luke, i think that is ne of the best post !!! and u should be on homepage everyday, so everyone could read these wonderful posting..
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again, such an amazing post!
your story seems so sad but it does mean you are meant to be alive and living as there has been so many times in your life where you could of broken down and not had the will to get yourself back up again. But as you said you are here living for experiences, which i like the idea of too, many people ask me why i think im alive and ive never been able to make any sense for it to be an anwer but that is very valid. I know this cuz, everything that has happened in my life has moulded me, nothing about me is ever just there (apart from my appearance) but even that in a way is shaped by the experiences i have been through.
I'm glad that all the bullying has stopped, people like that just feel insecure or hurt and had the need to bully you which is totally wrong, but again i know where your coming from there was once this girl in primary school that said i bullied her when infact it was the other way round, but now its sorted and we are quite close friends:-)
-sorry for such a long comment just realised how long it was so just a quick thing to finish the U-TOR would be such a great idea! Seriously awesome!
my estory ...
I'm premature ... my mom was about to die and the doctor told my family, who want to choose all to live? and they said my mother. then they put a shot in the stomach to kill me and quickly open my mother's stomach. when they open the stomach I was alive because My mother was well inflated and the shot didn't touch me ...
for that reason my mother gave me a middle name called : " Milagros " miracles in English!
so if we are alive is for a reason dear ;)
congrats at homepage btw .
you are beautiful!